Marking Time
Parenting makes you constantly aware of the passage of time. It’s so physically evident. Christian will be 6 months old next week. And of course he has changed monumentally in those months…
from wrinkled to roly-poly…
from often-inconsolable, to easily-distractible…
from stoic to playful…
from this
to this.
As difficult as those newborn days were, I miss them. I wouldn’t trade my 6-month-old Christian for my newborn Christian… but it’s true what everyone tells you:
it goes so quickly.
Two tiny teeth poked through a week ago, and I’m trying Christian’s first cereal feeding in an hour or so. Small milestones amaze me.
Already Christian has changed the whole character and atmosphere of our house. Everything revolves around his schedule and his needs. I’ll be honest – sometimes this feels tiring and burdensome (and revealing of sinful frustration in my heart, especially at 5 a.m.).
But it’s so worth it. I’m not just saying that. Our lives are enriched by our sweet blessing.
I feel unworthy to be a mother… too immature… too childish in many ways. His strength in my weakness, I keep telling myself, because otherwise I am completely incapacitated by my inadequacy.
We take it from morning to morning, marking these precious baby days, learning and growing as the future unravels.
You are totally right; it IS such a physical passage of time. It is so exciting and every day is better! I just love it! I agree though, at times I feel like a kid myself and definitely NOT ready to be a Mom. But what a joy, this mothering!
Hi Anna! Thanks so much for coming by to visit Windy Poplars! Yes, I do love the Anne of Green Gables stories, and have many references to them on my blog.- Our home is called Windy Poplars, so that just seemed a fitting blog name.- I hope you’re having a wonderful day so far, oh, and thank you for the suggestion of chocolate covered prunes. I’ve never heard of them, and they sound delish! It’s so nice to meet you 
I have been blessed to find another new mama out there that struggles in housekeeping the way I do. I appreciate your blog and hope to grow with you! My little boy is 1 year old and I have another on the way (due in March)…so I have got to get a handle on being a better keeper of the home.
Christian is so adorable!! what a great smile!
Your son is a.dor.able!
My youngest is 7 weeks old today and I already see so many changes in him from the day he was born. I have those same feelings of inadequacy regarding motherhood. There are days when I turn to God, in tears, wondering why He allowed me to have my children…terrified that I’m ruining them. In those moments all we can do is rest in His peace and know that He will give us all we need to guide our children to Him. I almost relax in the idea that I’m going to fail my children, sometimes daily, because I know that the best thing I can do for them is to point them to the One who will never fail them.
Love your blog!
What a great perspective… thank you.
this is precious. i have to open old photo albums to remember how tiny there were. and as i glance through the moments in time, i am reminded of both the hard days and the ones that filled with so much joy. I’m so glad God carries me through them all….
Me too!!!
What a wonderful post! Makes me really look forward to being a mother, even though I know it will be hard sometimes, because it would all be so worth it to have that blessing.
What a cutie-patootie!
It is amazing how they just go from newborn to these little marvelous, squishy, charming and joyful little beings! LOVE IT!!!
you said it so well. i’m amazed at how quickly the days, let alone months go by!
It’s hard to believe – 6 months so soon. What a darling gift from God! (And I am still telling myself, “His strength in my weakness.”)