Accepting Grace.
I act like I don’t deserve the gospel after I sin. I’ve given into my own desires instead of obeying my Lord. And then I’m remorseful. So sometimes, I stop praying for awhile. I stop reading the Bible. I excommunicate myself… because I’m ashamed to come back. I don’t deserve it, I think. I don’t deserve grace.
Truly, I don’t deserve it. I’m right about that.
But the crazy thing about Jesus dying for me is that I’m commanded to trust Him as my Savior. When, albeit temporarily, I give up hope because I’m sorry for sin, that’s not repentance – that’s disobedience. I disobey the gospel by staying away from it. The more sinful I am, the more I’m commanded to flee to the cross.
My mind can’t wrap itself around this sometimes, but I’m learning slowly. Isn’t He good?
Not at all… I’ve been praying for you, LeAnna. 
Mmmm…I love this! I feel the same way when I sin. I just can’t face Him sometimes, and I turn away, I’m almost creating more sin. It’s nice to know that someone does the same thing as me, but even better to hear words of Truth and encouragement!
Love love LOVE this, and needed to hear it. Thank you!
Thank you for sharing this. IT IS SO GOOD! It blessed me.
Yes, He IS good–ALL the time. You have expressed my own experience aptly. That is when we walk by faith and not feeling.
Amen, Sara!
Such a good thought. I have found from my own experience that when I accept grace it frees me to encourage others. Like Jesus said to Peter when telling him about his upcoming denial, “but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers” (Luke 22:32).
Yes, He is. Beautiful post, Anna!
Hope you don’t mind if I share this on facebook. These are excellent words, Anna. The more we sin, the more we are commanded to the cross. Love that.