Going Back to Yesterday
While I’m on blog hiatus, I’m re-posting some entries from my archives. Lord willing, I’ll be back to writing new content in a few weeks – see you then!
“But there’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
-Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
Isn’t it a wonderful feeling when renewed and utter gratefulness for grace sweeps over you like a flood? Yesterday I was thinking about something I had done that ended up hurting someone. I felt so miserable. The person had forgiven me, but I couldn’t forgive myself. I couldn’t impress the reality of God’s forgiveness into my thick head. I was talking through it with a friend, and processing through the realization that I don’t have to live in the sins and mistakes of the past. I said, “It’s not like I’m walking around with a black mark on my head or something.”
I wasn’t directly relating that statement to the cross, but as I said it, that flood of reality came rushing in and overwhelmed me. I would be walking around with a black mark on my head if it weren’t for Jesus. And I don’t have it anymore. Everything is forgiven. All of it. I don’t have to go back to yesterday and bear the weight of my failures then. I am new in Christ. I can’t even fathom this grace. I am so thankful.
(originally published September 28th, 2007)
Hey Anna! I hope you know that I have been reading all your posts as always, just haven’t commented in a while. I truly hope you are well!
This post really spoke to me, especially the quote from Alice in Wonderland – it jumped out at me. Sometimes I get so stuck in the past and the messes I have made, but as the quote says, I am not the person I was back then – and because of Jesus, I am being made new each and every day! 
Thanks for the reminder, Anna. I SO know the feeling!
Shalom!