Saying Goodbye
The other day, I finished watching the last episode of the last season of Gilmore Girls. It involves college graduation and lots of sentimental goodbyes. I could not stop crying as I was watching it - yes, I’m sappy like that (and just to warn you, this whole entry is pretty sappy). But seriously, there are so many goodbyes looming ahead of me in the next six months. And I dread every single one of them. I have grown to hate goodbyes over the last four years.
I know I’ll be excited for what all of my friends are going off to do. And I know I’ll be excited for wherever God is leading me. That will soften the blow a little. But still, these are people who I have been friends with for a few years now, and I’m just not ready to watch them walk out of my life. And I probably won’t be living with my family, either… although it could happen. But if not, and I live far away, it will have such a note of finality… why would I need to come back for good after that?
I’m so thankful that I live in this day and age, though. We can travel so quickly and communicate in so many ways. But goodbyes are still hard. One feature of heaven that has grown more and more lovely in my mind is that we will never have to say goodbye.
Filed under: Career/Education, Personal Reflection on January 12th, 2008
I hear you. Trust me, I understand. Personally, I’m having to go through a lot of goodbyes today because of a move. It’s painful, but it’s reality. And you’re right, all it does is make heaven look more glorious.
But there is hope. New beginnings are what are formed out of goodbyes.
I need to remember that.
It’s such a huge change that you’ll be undergoing. Man I remember all of that so well - - and really, this sort of relationship change doesn’t go away, it continues throughout life - - the harder part than good bye I think is evaluating and re-evaluating relationships after the good byes and figuring out what those relationships look like. BUT IT’S SO EXCITING!!!
Sounds like you are going through some anticipatory grief. First, enjoy the time you have left.
The last Gilmore Girls! (sorry I’m going to ignore the rest of the post and just say this - but I know you are a Gilmore girl fan so I’m sure you’ll excuse me)
I’m a bit annoyed that America already has the last Gilmore Girls season on DVD and it hasn’t even been on TV in Australia yet!
I am absolutely dying to watch the last season - and also not because I don’t really want it to end. Silly how attached you can get to a TV show, huh?