Going Back to Yesterday

“But there’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”
-Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland

Isn’t it a wonderful feeling when renewed and utter gratefulness for grace sweeps over you like a flood? Yesterday I was thinking about something I had done that ended up hurting someone. I felt so miserable. The person had forgiven me, but I couldn’t forgive myself. I couldn’t impress the reality of God’s forgiveness into my thick head. I was talking through it with a friend, and processing through the realization that I don’t have to live in the sins and mistakes of the past. I said, “It’s not like I’m walking around with a black mark on my head or something.”

I wasn’t directly relating that statement to the cross, but as I said it, that flood of reality came rushing in and overwhelmed me. I would be walking around with a black mark on my head if it weren’t for Jesus. And I don’t have it anymore. Everything is forgiven. All of it. I don’t have to go back to yesterday and bear the weight of my failures then. I am new in Christ. I can’t even fathom this grace. I am so thankful.